This is the 24th post in my 30 for 30/30 series where I am publishing a new post each day for the next 30 days within a 30-minute window without much of a plan.
If you're anything like me, you've probably spent more than a few hours wondering...
why you are here
what your mission in life is
what kind of unique contribution can you make
how can you change the world
As a kid, I was plagued by these questions. I don't how many other 10-year-old boys sat around thinking about life's most serious questions, but I sure did. Maybe that's why I was always told that I was too serious. Who knows, but deep thinking has always been a preoccupation with me.While my friends were out on the playground chasing girls and playing kickball, I was content to wander around by myself in a kind of mental fog thinking about these kinds of questions.
It might explain why, at about age 10, I walked directly into Marcus Garvey's practice swing with a Louisville Slugger baseball bat. I was knocked unconscious when the bat struck my forehead sending me backward about three feet. I didn't wake up for a week.Who says day-dreaming isn't a full-contact sport?
I spent 30 years forgetting
As it happens in life, the old is crowded out by the new. I grew up and the innate knowledge of my formative years was crowded out by the rebellion of youth and the pressures of raising a family. I engaged in work that only touched briefly on my most meaningful work because I needed to support my children.
It wasn't until I was in my mid-life years that I understood my place in the world. Through a process of intense searching, learning from others, working out my own truth, and embracing the knowledge of the heart—just as I did as a kid so long ago—I found my sacred calling once again.
I spent another decade writing
Over the last ten years, I've written extensively about my experiences. I created blogs (like this one), published books and taught courses designed to help others find their paths in business, writing for publication, meditation, and task management.I read countless books, spent tens of thousands of dollars on personal and business training programs, and worked intensely to develop my own no-end path.
Evolving my deepest work
I've spent my entire life discovering and evolving my deepest work. Evolving one's deepest work is doing the work of the soul, as a friend recently put it. I like the way that sounds. The way I see it, evolving our deepest work is the journey to develop our no-end path, that type of work that empirically defines us and from which we never see ourselves departing.Not all of us are engaged in our deepest work on a daily basis; even fewer of us engage it in our nine-to-five gig.
We make choices and do what we need to do sometimes. It's not wrong to be in this place, but it does give us a reason to reconsider and perhaps make a change...even a small one.I think writing the 30 For 30/30 series of essays has opened a doorway again for me to do my deepest work. I'm gaining clarity each day about what that might look like.It could involve new partnerships and other changes; I don't know yet. But I do know that I am happier and more content when I'm engaged in my no-end path, even if in a hybrid manner.
My hope for you
I hope that you're engaged in doing your deepest work. If not, I encourage you to do so, even if it's only limited to writing each day in your journal about your desire to do so.As you undertake even the smallest the steps on the path that leads you in the direction of your deepest work, though your vision may be fuzzy now, I promise you that the clarity will come.